I’m going for it here…
On August 7th, Donnie Wahlberg tweeted, “Maybe you want to tell someone something? Maybe you really want to but maybe you’re afraid? Maybe you should just do it. Maybe it’s time to.” So I’m just doing it. Some of you are going to read this and think I’m crazy for doing it. I really don’t care. I’m going for it. What the hell do I have to lose? I mean, the point of this blog is to be proactive and positive, so here goes it…
I wasn’t a huge fan. Allow me elaborate.
In 1986 – 1989, I loved other bands (Wham!, Bon Jovi, Winger, Def Leppard, Whitesnake, etc.). This does not mean I didn’t like you, I just had a bigger crush on these guys. Or that’s what I thought.
My best friend was a huge fan. HUGE fan. She and I were inseparable in the late 80′s and through the 90′s. Wherever she was, so was NKOTB. Of course, in the form of a cassette tape or poster. Your cassette tapes were the only thing we would listen to in the big, cream colored Grand Marquis she drove us to school in daily. You were part of our everyday lives; in the morning on the way to school and we were definitely jammin’ on the way home from school. Was I starting to like you a little? Maybe, but I couldn’t let that be known. I loved Bon Jovi and Winger. I had loyalty to them.
But looking back, our relationship was growing. I even found myself thinking that Jordan was singing just to me sometimes. WHAAAAT???
We taught ourselves the dance routine from the 1991 AMA Awards. We practiced it. A lot! Oh boy, I was starting to kind of really like you guys. I was even singing one of the 5 steps in Step by Step as a solo in that Grand Marquis, and I was loving it!
But I never went one of your concerts. Not once. My first concert was a U2 ZooTV Tour in 1991 (sorry). I went to college, and I lost touch with NKOTB. We all moved on.
You came back in 2008, and I was a little bit excited. Let’s be honest, I was totally stoked!!! Married for almost 10 years, I felt ridiculous. I was like a little teenage girl when I saw you on The Today Show. So I resisted again, and tucked that giddy teenage girl away somewhere.
So here we are, 2013. My cousin stated on Facebook that she was looking for someone to go to the NKOTB concert with her, so I told her I would go. I was hesitant at first. I mean, I had just turned 40 and I was going to an NKOTB concert? But after all these years, and all the years of suppressing that tiny crush I may have had on you all, I decided to just own it. Hell yea I was going to an NKOTB concert! I couldn’t wait! I was counting down the days to the concert.
My first NKOTB concert was in July 2013. And it was AMAZING!!! I felt like a teenager, and I loved it. Some of the music took me back to those days in the Grand Marquis on the way to high school, the great times with my friends, and remembering I couldn’t decide which on of the guys I liked the best. The concert rekindled our “relationship”, but this time, I was saying it out loud.
It rekindled a lot for me. Your concert took me back to my teen years and the great times in my life, and has reminded me to embrace my emotions. To stop trying to be so stoic all the time. I’ve got to enjoy life.
So thanks NKOTB. Thanks for serenading me and my friends on cold winter days in the 80′s and 90′s. Thanks for teaching us some cool dance moves, and most of all, for singing to us and letting us sing with you. Whether you know it or not, even if I didn’t know it until now, you were a part of so many memories of my life. Thanks for being a part of that.
What a beautiful gift you guys are able to give to people – memories of a lifetime. That’s just so awesome!
And thanks for loving your fans (even the late bloomers like me).
Denise – Your fan for 25 years